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10/29/16 02:37 am - A good day.

I saw so many stars tonight
It made my gut ache
Feeling all of them pulling
Playing with fate.
Each one whispered freedom
To the desolate cave-blind center
Of my undelivered youthful years
And something in that itself
Unfettered me and
Released something dear.

10/19/16 11:37 am

You still race through
The woods every time I fly by them
A ghost
And whether or not you know it
That's where you got the nickname
But what I wouldn't give to exorcize
Your apathetic hauntings

10/19/16 01:58 am - Q & A

Fresh linen and
Anger deeply submerged
Hidden in a world you hid from me
You always tasted like
Forbidden fruit.
Could you ever not tell
That my heart raced for you
After you
My panties sweating with the effort
I couldn't help even if I tried?
I always kind of got the sense
That you could
That it wafted from me in an
Olfactory Morse code just for you.

9/29/16 12:28 am

There's a part of me that's been dying, trying
And I want to learn how to be better to her
Softer for her,
Be kind to myself.
I just wasn't really shown how
By an abnormally injured
Brave little soul trying to make it up for me
She couldn't teach me
making space for myself or
The way a walk alone
Can be of grave necessity.
The world had been so unkind to her
she armed me
Suits sinking me deep,
Till I could barely breathe
But it being a gradual theft
One learns to live without breath.

This is no way to be.

How lucky for me, then,
That's it's not too late to learn
How to imbibe a musty leaf
To ingest a kind gesture
To be closer to free.

9/22/16 08:26 pm - Okay, I'm ready.

If you prefer smoke over fire
then get up now and leave.
For I do not intend to perfume
your mind’s clothing
with more sooty knowledge.



No, I have something else in mind.
Today I hold a flame in my left hand
and a sword in my right.
There will be no damage control today.



For God is in a mood
to plunder your riches and
fling you nakedly
into such breathtaking poverty
that all that will be left of you
will be a tendency to shine.



So don’t just sit around this flame
choking on your mind.
For this is no campfire song
to mindlessly mantra yourself to sleep with.



Jump now into the space
between thoughts
and exit this dream
before I burn the damn place down.



~ Adyashanti

6/3/14 02:38 pm - I love the things men say to me sometimes.

"Somehow, you brought out my dark side and my protective side. I could kill you, and then kick my own ass for doing so."

5/1/12 07:32 pm

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3/4/12 02:35 pm - Writer's Block: What’s in a Name?

What name do you wish you had?


Was a time I wanted a different name, a more common/normal name. My momma was so weird in so many ways, and at times it was novel, but at other times it was just exhausting. I just wanted to blend in, and I felt like having a more common name would help with that. I dunno how... At any rate, I would try so hard to get people to call me 'kat'. It seemed more normal. Now I keep trying to get people to use Katrina... because now I love my name. I love the way it sounds, and I wouldn't change it for the world; except, of course, for the last name and that would be in marriage.

12/9/11 12:20 pm

What do kids think love is? It's pretty amazing, actually...
http://bluecentric.com/?p=26948

My favorite?

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." - Karen, age 7

11/24/11 10:14 pm

Steve, I am thankful for your presence in my life.

11/2/11 12:36 am - Writer's Block: Secret love

Have you ever had a secret admirer? What happened?


I've always wished for it, but never had it happen. Every time I ride my bike, I glance for stowed away notes, secret declarations. Nada.

This doesn't mean I'll ever give up this dream. But it's always surprised me. Closest I came was a boy who would stalk me a little, but there was no secret about that. No anonymity. He'd text me and tell me to hold still. Stuff like that. Sigh. He was a darling.
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